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Feeling angry & teary.

I keep missing the mark & reading the signals incorrectly.

When Marco emailed me recently regarding the wedding all I sensed was emotional detachment. I was expecting and hoping to hear "Jules your coming back-wow.. great.. looking forward to seeing you..." Instead I get a luke warm reply to my question regarding what I should wear & the gift.

Blah. Feel blah.

I mean nothing to him.

I'm such a fool.

I thought I'd be loving & living with Marco this year & building a future together..not building an impenetrable wall.

I just wanted our love story to go on. I wanted a real future with him. I thought that he was my Prince and that all my prayers & dreams had been answered.

Now I'm in pieces... again.
And back to the beginning...
- dreaming of living in Italy,
- single,
- no work,
- no home,
- no love...

Feel sick.

In memory of...

In memory of
Associate Professor Dr Andrew Wesley Dent AM

(1 February 1955 – 10 June 2008)

Director of Emergency Medicine
St Vincent's Health, Fitzroy, Victoria, AUSTRALIA

A great professional mentor, great humanitarian and egalitarian man.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Andrew_Dent

"Christmas 2007"

Happy times & fond memories, with my St Vincent's Family

Cathy & Jules (above); Voula & Meg (below) in Christmas costumes made out off crepe.