Feeling angry & teary.
I keep missing the mark & reading the signals incorrectly.
When Marco emailed me recently regarding the wedding all I sensed was emotional detachment. I was expecting and hoping to hear "Jules your coming back-wow.. great.. looking forward to seeing you..." Instead I get a luke warm reply to my question regarding what I should wear & the gift.
Blah. Feel blah.
I mean nothing to him.
I'm such a fool.
I thought I'd be loving & living with Marco this year & building a future together..not building an impenetrable wall.
I just wanted our love story to go on. I wanted a real future with him. I thought that he was my Prince and that all my prayers & dreams had been answered.
Now I'm in pieces... again.
And back to the beginning...
- dreaming of living in Italy,
- single,
- no work,
- no home,
- no love...
Feel sick.
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