As I walk across the bridge admiring the view I find myself occasionally looking over my shoulder. This sudden movement is spontaneous. Almost instinctive. It takes me by surprise.
Why?
Why do I reflect again and again...?
Why can't I simply let the memory of you & us go?
You have.
Because...
I was really happy.
I felt cherished,
free,
and entwined.
For the first time in my life -
I dived deep into the ocean,
soared above the clouds,
Lied beside you in silence,
and stillness,
and complete happiness.
But you already know all of this.
Because...
It was 'our' story.
We lived, breathed, walked, danced,
and played
in the cocoon we built together.
It was beautiful.
Really beautiful.
Wasn't it?
But it was then -
and 'then' is now a long time ago.
Silence clears lingering ambiguity.
I no longer have any place in
- your heart,
- your mind,
- your memories.
All that I held onto is dissipating.
Not even doubts,
angst,
tears,
pain,
or grief lingers.
Just every now and again,
as I wedge my toes into the sand
I remember things....
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