Unfortunately the waiting game continues. Although I have finally obtained international recognition of my nursing qualifications and academic degrees from the Italian Ministry of Health and the University in Florence; I am still waiting to be sent a work contract so that I can obtain a work permit.
Emotionally, I just want to get on a plane and return to Italy, but the rationale part of me knows that I must wait until my visas are in order.
It is a time of transition and a test of patience.
My life experiences have taught me that during transition times: aspects of our physical world change dramatically; emotional change occurs slowly and deeply; and the soul is etched intricately with enduring lines.
Alan Watts states that "the only way to make sense out of change is to plunge with it, move with it and join the dance." Personally, during this time of transition the anticipation of change turns some days into a real struggle. Making it hard to find refugee, sustenance and joy, particularly in
the things that have always nurtured and inspired me.
The mind and body is here (albeit weary and wanting) but the heart is elsewhere. This fragmentation depletes me. I am thankful for the beautiful life I've lived, the people who love and support me, the little pockets of beauty in the everyday, and much, much, more.... but... (that "but" echoes in my mind) I want to establish a life in Italy. To be able to live, work and love there. So when you think of me, please say a prayer....