Even though the opportunities ahead seem very inspiring, deeply stimulating and wonderful, I'm over stretched and not able to take in the subtleties in each day.
I need a certain awareness and engagement in my life to keep me balanced and happy. I need to be able to sit each day in silence and stillness, to be aware of the wind against my skin or the sun on my face, to prepare a meal and enjoy eating it, to be able to engage in idle banter and smile at people in my neighbourhood and not be overly consumed by my own commitments, to to go to bed satisfied with a day well lived and not to collapse with exhaustion, to reflect and enjoy the life I'm living.
Sure I can challenge myself, push myself to the edge and climb any mountain I desire (if the will is great enough)... but I don't want to anymore. I don't need to push myself to the edge.
I just want to be true to myself. That is, maintain the balance, take pleasure in new opportunities and nuture love in my life.
