Anticipation

John Presser wrote 'You cannot be a cavalier leading the troops into war if you think you look stupid riding a horse'.

I still believe that closure will come when we stand face to face. Only in that moment will I truly believe how I feel about Marco.

I must be honest and find the courage to state clearly to him that I love and adore him. That I'm afraid of the magnitude of our love. I want him to know that my response on the beach of Elwood was not final. That I was scared... I want him to understand that it wasn't him or our love that I was negating... it was my fragility. I need Marco to understand that I'm sorry. That I love him. That I want to be with him and to build a future together.