Friday, 1 April 2011

Nursing Exam, Roma

Sadly, I did not succeed in passing the nursing exam in Rome this morning. I failed by 'one' point.

My heart feels heavy and aches a little. I know that it was ambitious and precarious, but my will was strong - and I stand by my will.

Even though I have wept at the outcome (my tears are from frustration - at the energy expended and the opportunites that remain beyond my grasp) I am deeply proud of the courage I  have shown, the trust I placed in myself and my abilities, and the depths I can go to, to follow my passion and pursue my dreams.

'What now...?' The question I had only circumnavigated.

Well, right now, I am trying to slow down and absorb the incredible experiences of the morning and to put my sadness and disappointment behind me. Then perhaps I'll go out for a latte and hibernate with a late afternoon a nap. Then later when I am ready to venture out onto the streets of Rome, I will try to ignite my senses with the aspects of Italy that fill my soul with light and hope.

There is a reason why today did not go as I had desired. Knowing why might appease my discomfort... but only God know's why.

I am thankful for being me. I am safe and free. I am blessed and loved. And I am truly thankful for the ability to dream, the "coeur" to follow my passions and the ability to "live" my dreams.

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